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August 29th, 2010

It's a new dawn It's a new day It's a new life @ 07:59 pm

Tomorrow I start my new job at Children's Hospital. I am so excited! Too bad I have a cold. Oh well I should go away.

Maybe I will start writing on here more.. I kinda miss not having that many people know my business. Maybe just maybe.

Getting married in like 49 days...getting super excited. Liam should get to come home with in the next week or 2. He is breathing on his own and getting close to 5 pounds.. so cute!!

song lyric time :)

Birds flying high
You know how I feel
Sun in the sky
You know how I feel
Breeze driftin' on by
You know how I feel
It's a new dawn
It's a new day
It's a new life
For me
And I'm feeling good

Fish in the sea
You know how I feel
River running free
You know how I feel
Blossom on a tree
You know how I feel
It's a new dawn
It's a new day
It's a new life
For me
And I'm feeling good

Dragonfly out in the sun you know what I mean, don't you know
Butterflies all havin' fun you know what I mean
Sleep in peace when day is done
That's what I mean
And this old world is a new world
And a bold world
For me

Stars when you shine
You know how I feel
Scent of the pine
You know how I feel
Oh freedom is mine
And I know how I feel
It's a new dawn
It's a new day
It's a new life
For me

And I'm feeling good

August 9th, 2009

(no subject) @ 03:30 am

So I'm stuck it this weird place. One were I'm not sure what I want to do with the rest of my life.do I want to keep working in the medical field. Or do I want to do something else. I have been thinking about it a lot latley. Sometimes I wish I would have never went to SJVC. I just get so frustrated with myself because I wasted money and I'm unsure if that's what I want to do with the rest of my life. I've been thinking a lot about fresno pacific. Idk any thoughts?

July 23rd, 2009

im excited. @ 12:27 am

Evan asked me to marry him!!

We haven't set a date. Prob won't get married for at least a year.

Im super excited!!

July 10th, 2009

god is love! @ 04:45 am

Current Mood: drained drained

So I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. A lot about what matters most. A lot about death and my health. A lot about love, friendships and faith.

I haven't talked openly about my feelings in a while. Like the feelings that I should share. The ones that would lift off of my chest.

I don't know why God took my uncle. And the people I worry about the most are my grandparents. I know they are strong but I just can't help but worry. I try to keep them in my prayers..sometimes I forget to pray.

Im not sure which direction I want my life to go in. So many different things run through my mind. Things happen.

I am truely and completley in love with evan jess robles!

Im starting to have a relationship with my sister. And I am happy to say that I do love her, and I can now proudly say she is my sister. Even tho I would never say she wasn't I always wanted to haha.

I don't really wanna say anything else.

Maybe now I will be able to breath!


July 5th, 2009

john 18 @ 10:06 pm

12Then the detachment of soldiers with its commander and the Jewish officials arrested Jesus. They bound him 13 and brought him first to Annas, who was the father-in-law of caiaphas, the high priest that year. 14 Caiaphas was the one who had advised the Jews that it would be good if one man died for the people. 15 Simon Peter and another disciple were following Jesus. Because this disciple was known to the high priest, he went with Jesus into the high priest's courtyard, 16 but peter had to wait outside at the door. The other disciple, who was known to the high priest, came back, spoke to the girl on duty there and brought peter in. 17 "You are not one of his disciples, are you?" the girls at the door asked Peter. He replied, "I am not." 18 It was cold, and the servents and officials stood around a fire they had made to keep warm. Peter also was standing with them, warming himself. 19 Meanwhile, the high priest questioned Jesus about his disciples and his teaching. 20 "I have spoken openly to the world," Jesus replied. "I always taught in synagogues or at the temple, where all the Jews come together. I said nothing in secret. 21 Why question me? Ask those who heard me. Surely they know what I said."

I really like this story well not like but its interesting. Peter was suposed to be a follower of jesus. He was suposed to be his friend. But what did he do. He stood outside pretending he wasn't a follower of jesus. But when Jesus was doing powerful like healing the sick peter was all over that.

Today in church I learned from this story. That we only want jesus when we need help. And that we only say we are followers of Jesus and God when its convieniant for us. Just like Peter. Jesus was tied up and beat and Peter wouldn't step in and stand up for Jesus. He stood out side trying to make him self feel better. We only call and believe in Jesus when we need him. But what if Jesus needed us. Could you stand up for him?

June 29th, 2009

jsdhjkwerdfhj @ 04:29 am

Im not perfect. And neither are you. Wtf. But it seems like im always the one to mess up. Im always the one who does something wrong. And oh but if you do the same effing thing its ok. And do I ever get mad at you. Hells no.


Give me a break.

June 24th, 2009

here goes nothing @ 03:33 am

Wow. Today was not what I expected. Man. I miss my uncle. I mean I wasn't super close to him but I saw him everyday. And now I won't.

And then effing work. Wtf. I went in. Everyone saw me crying..the doctor told me to leave and he would take care of it. Why the hell does his wife. The office manager call and yell at me. Fuck her. If she decides to be a bitch to me tomorrow im quiting. Ill find a better job were the office manager is actually nice.. Wtf my uncle just died and you wanna be a bitch cuz I didn't let you know I wasn't coming in but everyone else knew. Stupid. God I hate her. And I know she's going to have shit to say to me tomorrow. Jsdhiwedjei

Rip uncle jimbo.

June 19th, 2009

this blows @ 05:13 am

So I want/need to move out. The thing is...I don't wanna do it alone. I don't think ill be able to afford it. But there's nobody who wants to move out with me. Effing sucks. And if I don't mov eout and roy decideds to let jackie move in im going to have to share a room with tamara and jackie and her baby. Wtf.

Ugh oh well. I know if I just wait jesus will make it possible for me to move out..


Susej <3 i

June 18th, 2009

moving out.. @ 04:19 am

So I wanna move out in mid aug..early sep..

I know I should listen to what everyone is telling me about how I should save money..buy the things I need like a couch..bed..etc. But they don't honestly know how long I've been waiting to get the heck out of my house.

So if you or someone you know has a couch or a full size bed they wanna sell or get rid of let me know.



June 13th, 2009

here it comes @ 07:04 am

So I was talking with some of the girls at work. And we were talking about how people who don't work have medical or medicare. But yet we work and we have to pay for insurance. What the heck. So I just really need to vent. I am the only one in my class that got hired after extern. And everybodys like wtf. But you know what I said, its because you all have made fn of me for going to church. I have faith in jesus and know he has a plan and I try to do right by him but no you have to sit here and talk trash. That's why you are the one sitting at home all day.

So im going to get the same tat as tamara. But mines going to be on my back. Yea im talking her idea but who cares. Its going to say hosana. You can look it up cuz I don't feel like explaining it. But yea hopeing for that in the next couple of weeks.

Anywho. Good night. Tomorrows Tiffs wedding and I have to be up in 6 hours.

Peace out gbu ilysusej